@kuben123,
It's an interesting writing style! I'm probably not all that qualified to talk about things like this, but in the first paragraph you mentioned that 'he lived a life' , which implies he is dead now. That clashes with the following paragraph.
Also, in this second paragraph, the last sentence mentions that you missed him, so, since he wasn't there, the state of your lives
had been stale and lifeless, rather than would have been stale and lifeless (lives cannot really be lifeless though).
This last sentence also seems rather ironic, given the speechless and spellbound state he was in, but that is probably intentional.