@bearfist,
bearfist, do you do anything to nurture your mental growth? To challenge your limits?
I've from time to time found myself feeling in a rut, seeming to have no other function than collect my salary until retirement, at which point I will probably be physically incapable of doing most of the things I really want most to do.
Long story short, one day something happened to me that made me decide to make a bucket list. What did I feel I needed to have done in order to die happy, fulfilled, satisfied? Since that time, I've been working on doing everything on the list. I use the responsibilities that I face in day-to-day life as means to achieve the things on my bucket list. They are my first priority.
Hope that helps.