Well 123, it's apparent that faith can impart positive feeling. The apodictical existential pantheist however takes a more general view of Her "purposes." According to the general principle that nothing is entirely anything while everything is partly something else, our anti-dualist concept maintains She, It, is the Whole Shebang, while all the activity therein is Her thinking
Knowing this might or might not constitute a spiritual trip
Need some feedback.
In what respects
What if "God" is just part of our "conscience"?
Eventually when it's realized that there's no distinct wall between abstract and concrete (no pun intended), it will become increasingly apparent that Her existence or non- is merely a semantic issue; while all our argument one way or t'other merely constitutes the circulation of electrons in various patterns in our respective brains and their interplay with our speech and other means of communication
Oh and 123, without revealing anything critical to your ID, can you tell us something about self: eg, age, sex, nat'l, relig, ed., motives, fam, etc