This is exactly what growing up and ecoming an adult is about. Accept the responasbilities of your actions and mediate your desires and your duties.
Bill is right. Find something that make you happy to do that at the same time can make you have profit. Even if you have to work hard for it, or study a long career. There are countless of options. I found mine on Medicine. Here on A2K you can find people of many different careers, do not be afraid to ask.
Loving the thing you do for a living is like not working at all (i do not remmeber the sauce of this quote)