I just want to find a I love and love me

Well, first I would change my name to Mary, or something similarly female.

Just saying, Peter....

I am so confused, time for a nap.

I know the feeling, I don't mean to be selfish but I would like to be taken care of and loved half as much as I have put into my husband. In the marriage vows we said for better or for worse but apparently he said for better or until I feel like getting better. It's the kind of situation like.... when things get tough he gets going and he uses that excuse to excuse his behavior

I understand you but your profile name gives the feeling that you are a man. But I am sure you know how hard it is now days to find the right man?