What am I? Romantic vs sexual attraction

So I don't know what to call myself. It is so confusing.

I like the idea of having relationship with both sexes, to share my life to them, to be close to them emotionally as in like do sweet things with them. I like girls a little more than guys. The thing is that i have not been romantically attracted w/ anyone. I like people for their personality and sometimes their physical appearance. I havent had any relationships because when it almost comes to it I always backout. I want to have relationships but I dont know what is stopping me maybe im not yet ready or havent found the right one?

Another thing is that i like watching hetero and home sex. I find some guys to be really hot but im not sexually attracted to them as in i dont to have sex with them and i find very few girls hot and i do want to have sex with them. I dont really seek sex and as mush as possible i just want to hug than to shag. I dont really like sex that much.

I mean is this even a possible or im just making it sound complicated? What am i feeling really exists? Am i the only whos like this? Please do give comments i would really appreciate it. Need your help evryone! Thank you