@jfonseka,
Random, by chance, good, form of love, something to look forward to. Etc.
If I'm still alive by the time I finish reading, writing on paper/copying on paper by writing utensil, then re-reading all of the main words of my bible...
I plan on making never-ending love, having more casual sex than not with my at the time husband. But I have patience. And understand. It's tough, my situation at hand and I feel I'm barely making it, struggling tremendously, mentally, I am, but I believe in the Lord and trust the Lord's guidance. It may be in my head but I have got to stay strong and not give up, not give in to the negativity of depression.