I want to send this to a guy who I thought used me and then disappeared . But he came back months later and said he was confused what I wanted from him. I can see his point now. I do regret what I have done as married person but also care about him.. What do you think about that message? Did I put too much feelings for him to digest?
OK. I need to get something off my chest and it isn’t my bra.
I was thinking about what you told me yesterday…I am sorry for confusing you. It was never my intention. I guess I was lost in translation besides being scared and confused back then. I didn’t date men since I was 17 years old and I also didn’t sleep with them. ..And then I met you…What I felt with you was something I did not feel for years; it was real for me…I was happy with you…It is hard to explain…You said you did not think I wanted sex and dating. I wanted both. But as much as I wanted and want to be with you, I realized it was wrong because I am married. I have to figure out this part first. I should do it years ago, but I did not due to my own fears. Things are not that easy when you live in foreign country alone, but I gave myself this year to put big girl’s pants on and figure out my life.
I was also afraid to open up and get hurt. After all, I did. So when you suddenly stopped talking to me, all I could think of was that what happened between us did not mean anything to you. I can’t pretend it did not hurt me. Maybe I am just another “babe” for you. Who knows!? But you were real for me.
Anyway, I wanted to know you this…
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