i like sex with men but am not mentally or physicly attracted to them

hi
i hope this does not sound wierd and please excuse my punctuation.
i have had sex with boys and men before i mean by boys when i was a boy also,i have also had sex with girls/women too.

i like having sex with guys i always get turned on when i see some mens private parts i am very fussy in the type i dont like hairy fat men lol or just hairy.

i dont in any way feel physicly or mentally attracted to men though its just the sex if you get me,i am not the kind of person to go looking for sex i dont have a big sex drive at all. i have only had sex with 2 different guys one of them it has been a few times since we where a bit younger i have always been on the bottom if you get me lol. after sex i feel extremely guilty like i cant look at him but before i am up for it.

with women i get crushes and always think about spending my life with one i would not even consider having a relationship with a man,but on a few occasions i have had trouble getting hard with a woman but to be honest i am very very fussy and i think thats what it could be,when i masterbait i always think about a man i dont find there body attractive just having sex.

i just dont know what is going on with me i want a relationship with a woman but am just not interested in the sex,i have been avoiding relationships because of this reason. i love the female body but find the private area repulsive i think a vagina is a horrible thing.


so please could someone help me and figure out what is going on with me i find a womans body attractive yet mens private area and sex with men atractive yet not sex with a female. i dont know if it is because i have had bad expierences with females that cause this i find females very sneaky and just dont trust them many of them that i know cause trouble and spread rumors my mother was the first female i experienced the distrust with,i have been really hurt by women like taken as a fool and thought i was a friend with some girls yet they have caused trouble like telling people things i have said yet adding things too it.

i am 22 btw