@chai2,
An addition to the above.
People tend to expect from others the behavior they have experienced from them in the past.
From you, all the way back years ago when you began posting here, people you work with have learned to expect strange and explosive behavior.
I understand you say you want to be change, but you cannot expect their behavior toward you to change overnight.
Not trying to be mean, but imagine what they can be thinking when they see you approaching them, or try to engage them. They are wary of you. I certainly would be.
You push too hard for one thing.
I think you need to concentrate on yourself for the time being. That means maturing from someone who jokes about egging someones car/house and being jealous of a 2 year old.
Once you grow up, you'll have a better idea of how adults behave.
For what it's worth.