You need to sit still and relax. The world does not revolve around you. People have their own feelings that have nothing to do with you.
Stop being so needy. Your jealousy come up because you think everyone has to fill your needs.
Many of your posts have this same theme: you think everyone has to service you. Learn to be your own person.
Sorry to be so brutal, but you just don't seem to be learning from the past. You keep repeating the same thought process over and over again.
You water your own negative seeds and allow the actions of others to water your negative seeds. (insequrities, jealously, neediness, lack of self esteem)