Do you imagine marrying a woman and having kids with her and growing old?
If not, could it just be that you are not attracted to the idea of marrying and having kids? That's not for everyone.
No reason why you can't have sexual partners who are men, and then have close female friends, while remaining unmarried.
What "emotional attraction" do you have to women that wouldn't be satisfied with a close (nonsexual) friendship, if you're not attracted to women physically?