Custody and Depression

I have battled a recurring major depression for about 15 years now, have encountered it as "situational" as described by the mental health providers I have been seen and treated by. I have made two serious self harm attempts; one in 2000 and one in 2008. In late 2009, I had a beautiful daughter. She is the absolute light of my life. Her father and. I were never married. He claimed "domestic violence" against me I March of 2010, by calling police and telling them I threatened murder-suicide with my infant daughter. He was granted a restraining order for this. I could not afford an attorney to defend myseld, ans subsequently lost the case. I have been in counseling, psychotherapy, Domestic Violence Perpetrators group, and placed on probation for this allegation, and my history of depression is his entire case. After 4 months of not seeing my precious baby girl, I came up with the retainer for an attorney, that fit the case. She has been great. We petitioned the court for unsupervised visitation... and walked out with 50/50%. That was over a year ago. He has stalked me, harrassed me, illegally disclosed my mental health recordsto 3rd parties outside the court, denied my visitations due to inconvenience, even served a new restraining oder on Mother's Day weekend so he could take my daughter with him to get married in Las Vegas (his 4th marriage), and mby hands were tied until a week later when it was dismissed. It is a complete abuse of the system! We appeared in court again for this still temporary order, everything is on the table. And I am being found "unstable" due to my history. I feel that my depression has radically improved since 2008, I am no longer taking medication, but am still seeing a counselor and a therapist. My attorney is great, but we are losing because of his spite and anger, dealing only in past issues. I have a good job, but am overwhelmed by the cost of this, don't know how much longer I can afford my attorney, but can't stand losing my daughter over this. Any suggestions for getting the court to hear me out? We are in WA State.