@jespah,
You are right. I have no idea what I want. I have always loved spending time with him and I have always been really attracted to him, even before we met each other, so I'm not sure if the reason I find myself wanting to hang out with him now is because I want to be in a relationship with him again or if this is just me wanting to be friends with him.
We never really had a time in our whole relationship where we were just friends before we started dating, it was more like we were acquaintances for a few weeks then he asked me out, so I don't even know what us being friends is supposed to feel like.
This morning he came over before I was even awake and asked me if I wanted to get coffee and go sit outside because it was beautiful outside this morning and I got ready and we got coffee and drove to a nearby park but, after about an hour, he got all weird and suddenly wanted to get back home. I really have no idea what to think about this situation anymore.
I know we broke up because we both needed it but I still care about him, probably more than I have ever cared about anyone.