I have had spiritual visions over the last few years, things I can't describe but I know they're not what the normal person experiences. I've had to get on medications to keep them out of my head, and have been hospitalized 3 times now for the experiences I've had.
my most recent spiritual experience, was the full concept of Hell. I firmly believe that Mentally, I was experiencing Hell. Here is my understanding of what I experienced.
When you are on your way to Hell, you are aware that you are going there, forever, and your mind slowly begins to fill with what will be happening to you there. Any light you see slowly begins to fade into darkness, and your fear grows higher, and higher, and higher. There is absolutely no escape; your whole thinking process changes in that it becomes an absolute Fact, that you are going to hell forever. Your mind will be flooded with the realization (that although not true) that Hell is all that has ever existed, God never existed. And as your fear rises, all of the sudden, when you least expect it, everything turns pitch black, and you recieve all the pain and tortures you could possibly imagine, all at the same time. Screams so loud, a 1000 times what would make you go deaf in real life, but you will never lose your hearing. Your body will be crushed and compacted into the tiniest space you could ever imagine, you will feel complete suffocation, not one bit of air, or water. in your mind, it will be as if you're the only person there, every vital organ will be ripped out of your body to the point where you won't even be able to scream. you'll never, ever see the light of day again. Loved ones and family turn into terrifying demons, as if your whole life the joke has been on you, and your life was just an illusion, and the whole time this has been the plan, for you to spend an internity of Horror and suffering. All of these terrifying things grow Infinitely Worse, Forever.
Having experienced this fully in my mind, I had to be rushed to a hospital, I was screaming and desperately asking for help, begging, and pleading, not to go there, sweating profusely, and asking for water, breathing heavily with my heart pumping so hard. They had to put me unconscious.
I am somewhat haunted by these thoughts as sometimes I can remember the sheer terror, but it fades with memory.
What I experienced was far worse than anything I'd ever read or heard about Hell, and it's something I feel I had to share.