Smoking patch

Yes it does seem like a culture, but I have no romanticisms about the act or function, I only recently took it up again because others were doing it around me, I should either cut them lose or grow some balls it would seem.
It is totally a social nervous boredom thing for me.
I should not be doing it in my home though, but you know what it's like once you start with one the excuses keep rolling.
I need to grow up.
It is after all is said and done self mutilation.
And I can and will be better than this.
Thanks for your words.

All I need to do is reintroduce my exercise and it will put pay to it all.
When I used to work out all day, there was no time for it and it actively made me feel weak.
A downward spiral you could say.
So yes I need to force my self away from my desk as I tend to smoke when seated and get back on my feet with dumb bells in hand.
I was doing well until this change popped up and found I needed to be here for the time being and as it was a little stressful for me I have given myself a short reprieve until I am confident about my self and abilities here again.
I hope it wont take long.
And as said I am going away soon, so this will be a total change and I doubt I will have much time to do this awful thing any more, but then as also said change is stressful.
We will see.
I just need to name the day and bloody well stick to it.
Looking for a bit of the old obsessive compulsion that says "No, if you do this you are a failure".
A bit horrible always threatening to label yourself a loser but is still effective enough of a deterant.
Or maybe I currently agree I am a loser so have nothing to lose?
I think people who smoke out of compulsion are totally defeatist and may have given up on themselves to a degree.
I really think it more psychological than physical.
Got to give myself a prize to win, that might work.

Thanks Krumple, good to see you.

That is the same patch I am using.
And I would say my dreams are different but all I have found is that I am forgetting them more, and as my dreams are highly vivid already I have not really noticed a great change, but you are something is going on in those realms.
Thanks for your encouragements.

Thanks for your words,
I have noticed drops in blood pressure and palpitation like symptoms.
But I have been drinking more coffee lately.
I WILL DO THIS.
Thanks again

This is brilliant I will look this up immediately.
It sounds almost mythological.
Thank you so so much.
Just in case I cant find it do you have any links?
Thanks again

the whole patch made me pass out and I have the head gash to prove it as I hit the china cabinet.
don't get sucked into e-cigarettes. They are heavy and you have to charge part of it on a usb port. They barely make a puff and are too fake.
Then I tried half a patch and got dizzy.