How to fight with depression and suicidal?

Hello zhjuan,

I am sorry you feel that way. Depending on how old your child is, you might
be suffering from postpartum depression. I would advice you to seek professional help to get out of your depression and deal with childhood traumas. You don't need to suffer alone, there is lots of help out there for you.
Please see a therapist so you can get better to enjoy your family - your child
needs you!