Get a girl back 5 year relationship

Hello everybody,

I really hate to write a novel to explain my problems. But I believe it's necessary to give you the full range of problems we are having.

All the problems started, when I thought she was cheating on me. One day I went to a party with some friends, I was expecting one of my best friends to be there. when he did not show up, a later found out from some friends that he had a blind date that night. So I tried to contact my girlfriend and she did not answer her cell phone. And that was very unusual me and my girlfriend have very close relationship, and she never disappears without tell me anything. So I suspected her of cheating on me with a best friend because I did not hear back from her for 24 hours. And remember, we was living together. This was the first time and four years that she has disappeared without tell me anything. The thing is, my best friend was not there that night, and he had a hot date that night so what is a guy supposed to think.

So, I was naturally upset. I've thrown all of her close and the hallway. After 24 hours, she came home and discovered all of her close in the hallway. She got upset about it and we haven't talked for about a week. And then from their she moved into her dad's house.

Eventually we made up and start talking again. Now three months later it seems that nothing has changed. Were not dating anymore but we still say we love each other and make love every week sometimes more. But when I asked her out she refuses me. And I don't understand why she will not go back out with me. We always say that we love each other, we always kiss each other, and hold each other every time we see each other. And she still will not go back out with me. Our relationship seems to be little bit better now. I just don't understand anymore. About to just stop talking to her altogether, it just heard so much when you love someone so much, but they will not be with you.

I was thinking that she does love me and does want to be with me, she's embarrassed to let her guard down and let me in. She's very stereotype and she worries about what everybody thinks about her. So, that's what I think the problem may be. But I would like to have your input on this or any advice you may have. Because I am lost, I tried everything to try to be with her.

I only have one more idea why she does not want to be with me, but I really tried to put this out of my mind, it's a worst-case scenario. But it seems to make more sense than the other scenarios I came up with.

I was thinking that she's still in love with me, but does not want to be with me because she is seen someone else and is happy with that person, but at the same time she's in love with me. As the other person may make her happy and I make her happy at the same time that may be confusing her. She may want to say yes to dating me, but she may be afraid that her other boyfriend may find out that we are dating me and end it with her. And she may be in the state of confusion right now and does not know what she wants. I do know she knows, that she loves me. And I would think that's all someone would need.

Please help I love this girl with all my hart.

P.S
if this helps out all, I did go down to Florida for two weeks without her and was going to clubs and having fun. Not sure if this made her lonely and wanting to look for somebody else. I notice problems when I came back after two weeks. So I'm thinking that the leave for two weeks after seeing each other every day for four years made her reconsider her thoughts with me an experiment with other people. But at the same time shes confused because shes in love with me but she may want other people as well.