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Endymion
 
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Reply Tue 4 Jan, 2011 05:20 am


Dear Olga - sorry to hear about your loss over the holiday
I don't think you will read this any time soon - but I am thinking of you




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Endymion
 
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Reply Fri 14 Jan, 2011 04:21 am
http://www.independent.co.uk/multimedia/archive/00531/11envcligetty_531623a.jpg
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Endymion
 
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Reply Wed 19 Jan, 2011 12:10 am
http://www.russellstewartstone.co.uk/custom/images/products/39%20near-saddle-tor-b&w.jpg
ehBeth
 
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Reply Thu 20 Jan, 2011 11:15 am
must have been something in the air

hoping you're feeling

not good, not strong, not anything in particular

feeling

Endymion
 
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Reply Mon 24 Jan, 2011 10:10 am
@ehBeth,

Hi ehBeth - good to see you

hope life is treating you well

endy
Izzie
 
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Reply Fri 4 Mar, 2011 07:46 pm
@Endymion,
I love the photo you posted Endy...

thinking of you - be well and hope you are feeling....too

love to you (((((e))))) xxxx
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Izzie
 
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Reply Fri 11 Mar, 2011 10:35 am
(((((Endy)))))x
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Izzie
 
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Reply Sat 19 Mar, 2011 07:13 pm
(((((Endy)))) - thinking of you, love.

Be well x
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Izzie
 
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Reply Sun 24 Apr, 2011 04:13 am
@Endymion,
Hey Endy

I do hope you have been able to go out in the sunshine and maybe walk in the woods

Thinking of you this Spring

miss you ((e)) x

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Izzie
 
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Reply Sat 21 May, 2011 06:02 pm
Hey ((e)) - hoping life is being gentle with you love



x
tsarstepan
 
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Reply Sat 21 May, 2011 07:10 pm
@Izzie,
Once again, I am staggered by your brilliant photographic output Izzie. Very Happy
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edgarblythe
 
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Reply Sun 22 May, 2011 04:57 pm
Endy
If you are reading - My best thoughts are with you this day. I hope you are making progress as a writer.
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ehBeth
 
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Reply Tue 31 May, 2011 09:09 am
Hey Endy - thinking of you today. Wondering if it is a cool afternoon in a forest. Wondering if the early harvest is good.
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Izzie
 
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Reply Sun 12 Jun, 2011 03:36 pm
@Endymion,
Hi ((e)) - thinking of you xxxx

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ehBeth
 
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Reply Mon 29 Aug, 2011 08:36 pm
Thinking a lot about you lately.

The changes in the weather - the seasonal root veggie harvest beginning - getting a camera out again regularly - attending outdoor concerts - happenings in the M.E. - how is Endymion doing
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Endymion
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 09:24 am
Well, this isn't going to be easy to say.


When my internet connect went kaput six months ago – so did I.

The sorry truth is that I've never stopped being suicidal. Not since I was a kid. It's a constant battle and one which I refuse to draw anybody else into.

I ended up in hospital and when I came back and my connection was fixed, I couldn't go on line. I didn't feel strong enough.

I thought about you all and wanted to make contact – but I just couldn't do it. I didn't have the words. And there was a part of me that said, 'Leave them alone.' Because at that point I didn't know if I was going to make it. That's the truth.

Whatever happens, I want you to know – everyone who has been here for me in the past, that I will always be grateful and respectful of you and care about how you're doing.

With my writing, my coming to terms with things, I haven' t given up. I haven't.

I'm getting stronger all the time.

I hope I get the chance to prove it to you.

I'm not asking for anyone to forgive, but I am determined to come back here and contribute as much as I am able. Don't feel there is any need to reply to me. I understand how frustrating it all must be. If I've hurt you, I am truly sorry.

I think closing down the death diary was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made in my life. It was an outlet I wasn't ready to give up.

I've made a lot of mistakes. I shall try and rectify some of them.

Wishing you all well

Peace
endy
Letty
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 09:40 am
@Endymion,
Endy, what you need is a wonderful piece of writing that glitters. You will be fine, dear man. I sense it.

Did you know that creative people have those problems?

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ehBeth
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 11:13 am
@Endymion,
write

write when you can

your words are beautiful and strong, even when they are difficult

I'm looking over some hills with early autumn colour changes. I hope there is something as lovely for you to see and walk through today.
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Rockhead
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 11:39 am
@Endymion,
gentle breezes, endy.

you are stronger than you realize.
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edgarblythe
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 11:57 am
No pressure from us, endy. Just welcoming and love.
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