got an american friend or bf?

He is a widow. Her wife just died recently. At first, I was one who offered prayers for his dying wife. I was talking to him everyday asking how the condition of his wife is. I try to encourage him to look forward and think positively. Until one day I also shared to him about my frustration owed from my boyfriend. I told him that I am so broken hearted on that day, and he listened trying to alleviate my feeling. Time came he asked my mobile number and I had no hesitant I gave it to him. He kept calling me almost everyday. We were not talking anything else just his wife, I can feel his misery.

Last May, his wife died. He brought her dead body to our country. I was hoping to be there on burial but I was not able to attend to since their place is a bit away from mine. He was still calling me if he got a chance until he told me that he like to go to our place before he’d come back to America. He really came and we saw each other, he cried and I cried on him too and unexpectedly we became close until he went back to America. The more we talked everyday, the more he called me. I am thinking everything is still normal especially with his situation.

He’ll be coming back in our country this coming December, he told me he is buying some things for me which I really don’t understand. There are lots of questions that linger on my head now like….what will I expect for his return? Do you think he’s coming back for me? I don’t like to ask him about our situation now coz I am afraid he might say we are just friends. I feel in love with him honestly but I consider my feeling as a mess. Infact, he told me one time that he is still aiming to get married coz he is still young and wanting to have a kid. He even teased me if I can be his wife and I said no, this is not the right time yet. Actually he is still 44 and I am still 23, do you think our age matters. He told me also, that if he will get married again he wanted to live in our country because he loves our culture especially our strong family values. What’s his aim really....