Did he break up with me because of the ESP?

I am half filipina& half white. I was born and raised in the US. (I came to the Philippines in may 2006) There was this boy who seemed to like me at a boarding school in october 2006. I left the boarding school and I moved to a different part of the philippines. I still kept in touch with him- I asked his brother to ask him what feelings he had for me while I was at the boarding school- and his brother said "By the way he acts and talks- I can sense he's in love! You too seem to really love each other!" This boy (his name is Shad) began to text me using his friends' cellphone- because he doesn't have a cellphone of his own. He sent me msgs like "Are u sleeping now luv?" at night & "yes you know what I want to hug and kiss u but ur so far from me...luv you..." & I want to hold you tight with a sweet romance"...(

And in the morning he wrote "Morning my dear hows ur sleeping my only one I ever luv. R u ok?" He wrote many other similar romantic messages to me in the cellphone. At first I thought this was too good to be true. I wasn't used to being showered with so much romance. (I never had a boyfriend before) Once I had a fight with one of his friends on the phone through texting- so he wrote to me "Hey! Dis s shad how r u I'm so sorry because I didn't reply right away because I don't have money please don't mess with my friends cause they don't know about our relationship. U know I really luv u but please don't mess with my friends or else…"


Even when he was on the phone with me once- he said "My friends are asking- ?'who's that you're talking to?' I answered ?'She is my only luv.'" Even another time when I was talking to him on the phone- towards the end of our conversation when he had to leave to do work- he said "I love you." I hesitated to say "I love you" in return. So he responded by repeating "I love you" 2 times. So I gave in and I said "I love you too. Bye." This cell phone romance went on for about 3-4 weeks.


But a few days later- when I texted his friend's number and I asked for him- he suddenly wrote "I just want to be friends." I felt shocked and devastated. He said his parents won't allow him to have a girlfriend because of his age and his schoolwork. He also said "You're older than me too." (He's 14 and in high school. I'm only 2-3 years older than him- I started college a bit early) He said "I am poor and you are rich. We come from two different worlds. I don't want people to think that I am pennying you so we must break up!" I asked him "Are you still attracted to me?" Then he said "No! I was never attracted to you! A relationship like this is so wrong and so disgusting!" Then I asked him "what about all the things you said to me- you said you were so in luv with me?"


He said "That was just a joke. I want you to move on and find another guy who's right for you. My friend Mike likes you. He wants you as his girlfriend. Would you consider him?" I won't talk to him again. I don't want to be his friend after this. But I still feel crushed. What do you think of this situation? Did he truly love me and was he just afraid of his parents or afraid of what people would think- or was he really just playing a joke on me? He was born into a native tribe in Bukidnon by the way. He's adopted by the people who run the missionary program called Sulads. This boy is religious and he is supposed to have morals. He sometimes mentions the importance of Jesus. I don't know the motives of this boy. Based on reading this situation- what do you think his motives were? Am I gullible to fall for him?

Sometimes I feel forced to send unwanted thoughts to people- it's like ESP. (I have many deep emotional problems and confusion from abuse in the past) Did he break up with me because of the unwanted ESP thoughts I sent to him? Please: No sarcasm or insults. I came here for help- not to get angry! Some of you may think this story seems stupid but it isn't...