i told one of my homegirls i was lonely, but i didnt mean i wanted sex, or i need it, or anything, honestly i dont care. sex is fun but friends are more valuable.
i meant like, affection wise, i dont want an orgasm i want a girl to just LOVE me, im not kidding.
thing is her friend was there, and they wanted to give me a handjob, but i didnt , well i did, but i didnt want it if she was doin it just because she though i was lonely, i dont want like pity but damn wtf? ok anyways they started, but i wasnt comfortable so i couldnt "finish the marathon" i didnt want to shoot her down, or make her think it was like her fault, said i just masturbated before she came over "honestly, i did! i didnt know u had plans"
(how i didnt ejaculate everywhere with 2 girls i dont know, usually its over in a few seconds
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and were hanging out TONIGHT.
anyone have any advice? is she doin it cuz she wants me or cuz she doesnt want me to feel lonely? does it matter?
ive just never had sex with a girl i had any sort of real emotional connection with, and shes one of my best friends.
Now its definitely my turn to make 1st move, but im not sure. anyways, any experience? advice? lemme know! i just didnt think it was a good idea, but i mean, come on ima guy! eventually im gonna cave in. i dont wanna ruin anything prematurely.