@McTag,
oh Good Morning Crew
(darn that potion!!!!!)
oh my - don't I prattle on a lot
Thanku all for replying and your words.
Now, thing is, I don't remember whether or not G saw the forum last nite " I don’t think he did - it had been such a busy day and I was exhausted and I think as soon as I took my potion I went off into lalalalala land. I have some vague recollection of getting upstairs " but I woke up there.
It's really quite hard for me to explain. For 19 months or so I have come here - pretty much every day - and everyone has been here thru thick and thin and especially as my world changed. I've made S-boy a part of this forum because if I am sitting talking to crew - he is with me most of the time and tho there are certain topics I wouldn't allow him to see - like the toppling thread - the rest of A2K with music and pics and all - then, I want him to be part of what makes me happy (realising that being here makes me happy, talking and playing with people I trust - I don't have that here in real life (totally my choice) - and I have my reasons to keep everyone in real life at a distance and am still doing so " tho I’m working on trying to be more trusting.... well, I say that, but.... I’ve let one person back in, that’s as far is goes right now. If things go wrong I can walk off into the sunset " no worries.
So - I let G back into my life - but every time he walks in the room I have to close my laptop down which is just plain daft - I've nothing to hide here and everything I wanna share - but what I also realise is if it all goes up in the air.... my private world is still viewable to him (and 37 million others) - well, the 37million others don't bother me - what would bother me is if I tumble and I then don't feel safe here.
BUT.... that may all sound a bit dramatic - but it's how I feel. I know I'm safe here and know who I can wholly trust - being cyber makes no difference - I do know the people I talk to and have relationships here which are far more important than just being online buddies. SO - I know PM is there and I know email is there.... so, I can talk there to y'all if I need to.
I can't tell you how much this has been worrying me. I'm not much good at being secretive - I only have one aspect of my life that no-one touches or can nor will ever touch - and that shall remain so - but me, who i Iz and what I'm about " is being here online as well as at Chez Izzie. That’s my choice and I think G respects that. There is nothing here that I have to hide " and I can’t change who I am - here is a great place to be for me, and tho that may be weird " for me, in the last few weeks where I haven’t been around so much " it has bothered me. Life is great and I’m doing the things I want to do " but that also, for me, means coming here and telling you all about it.
Just as I wouldn’t give up my friendships for anyone........ I can’t give up this ‘ole sailing ship for anyone and I’m not much good at sitting still without having a yabber to the crew.
So........ there we are. Done and dusted.
Now......................... Vegemite..... tomorrow is the day a? For you. Another scan?????? Do let us know how you go girlie OK " we’ll be thinking of you.
Think there is something else going on tomorrow too!
BOSUN Beagle... would you like to join me for a cuppa by the river... I'm going to have a wander down there. Ooooooooooooh.... it's so nice to have a day off - I have been so tired this week. Am off to Cornwall in a bit to let the dawgs out - but I'm here tonite with the little fella.
McT - lovely to see you - will make an extra pot if you and herself are up for a brew.
<runs off to put kettle on>