I hate my marriage...

Hello i have been married for 3 years and im sooo very unhappy in my marriage.... im unsure what to do. Our relationship started as a very off and on thing (due to him) and then i fell pregnant. We decided to give it a go, move in with eachother and then we got married. At the time i thought it was a good idea because i was in love with him. About two months after (one month after baby was born) i found him with his mates at a get together after playing sport with a butt naked stripper/sex worker and everything seems to have gone down hill from there. To cut all this short ive put up with strippers, ex girlfriend issues and cling-ons (he loves to flirt and lead people on). We fight all the time and i know i take it out on the kids with yelling and a short temper. Im always told i dont do enough and i was told this morning that the house is a pig sty (everybody i know makes fun of me cose im a clean freak so i know its just to hurt me but it still cuts like a knife..) I was told his job is to work and my job is to do everything else.

I do not look at him a see love, i hate my marriage and i feel as though its the worst thing i have ever done in my life. I dont want to leave because this is my home too but he wont leave either.

How do i get myself back? I feel sooo alone and cry all the time (i think he likes that too)