@edgarblythe,
do you know, edgar-- what it feels like when you think , 'this is it, there's no way to go'? For some it is being dead broke, and scared the kids will suffer. For others it is losing a spouse or a child- they are just sure they will slowly waste away from the hurt. Or disaster broke your body, and it ain't fixable.
Then, I come to my end. I think I cant even stand it. I wonder EVERYDAY, where and when. But it just come to me when I was pulling out the ironing board, gonna hang away clothes I will probably never put on again.... what you do lady, is keep on walking. Just keep your heart open and your mind private, and keep on walking. That is all I know I can do.
And the cancer keeps moving too...
Don't feel sad or pity, edgar--- get determined. When you start to go down and know you can't go no further... keep walking.