Thanks Endy. You're always so nice to me.
I don't even know how to respond to such niceness anymore (from someone on the internet, anyway - people are almost always nice to me in my real life-but my experience on the internet has been different).
As a matter of fact that'd be a good topic for a thread - how different one's perception of the world is in real life vs. cyber space. My perceptions differ wildly. When I'm out and about in the real world, I always feel encouraged by how kind and polite people are (especially children- if you were to believe the media - you'd think they were all violent, nasty little yobs over here or murdering psychopaths who fantasize about shooting up their schools in the US- I find them to be delightful, in general). But on the internet - I'll be honest - half the time I literally have no idea what someone is saying (although I have a good command of the English language - I find internet-speak to be deliberately opaque and confusing) and the other half, I do get what the person is saying and trying to communicate, but I find it to be insinuating and tiresome and ultimately cowardly, because the only conclusion I can come to is that these same people are acting entirely differently when they're out in public than they do when they're under the cover of anonymity on the internet.
I guess what I'm saying is that I get so tired of all the irony and cleverness and lack of earnestness and sincerity in our culture as a whole - but on the internet especially. I don't know how to play that game - and I don't want
to play that game.
It makes me sad that I can't just take your compliment without suspicion- I didn't used to be like that. But if you're sincere - I sincerely thank you
And if you're not - shame on you - but what else is new?
You know - I've decided that I'm just going to pretend that everyone is sincere - as the quote in my profile says - "Be careful how you view the world- that's how it will be." Well I want my world to be full of kind and sincere people - so that's how I'm gonna view it.
I'd love to know who you are (mostly because I like to know who I'm talking to), but also because you seem to have a similar outlook to mine - and believe me - that has been a rare occurrence in my internet life (but not in my real life - Thank God!). If you feel like it - tell me about yourself. (I'm saying that because that's what I'd say if we met in real life - I'm not that good on internet etiquette- if I'm being intrusive - just ignore me).
Finally - I posted this picture of the trees because the last poem you posted in your people thread describes exactly where I go everyday. Though I don't go alone - I take my dog.
Whatever else we end up saying to each other - I do want to tell you that I love your country. I really like the people (as a rule I'd say they're much nicer than those from my own country- it makes me sad to say that too - but I'm just one of those people who feels compelled to be honest - no matter how much trouble it gets me in) and I love
the landscape, especially in the countryside. I like to tell myself I I belong here, because it is
my ancestral home. I'm just glad I've had the opportunity to find that out. This thread is kind of my love letter to England - and the Mendip Hills in particular. I've never been anywhere that I found so beautiful - and I've done a fair amount of traveling - so that's saying something.
Hope you enjoy your day - Aidan