maybe that's my problem. i really don't know what i like to do. i mean, i love to sleep but that's probably because growing up as a swimmer with practice at 430 am in high school, i was rather deprived of sleep.
i am rather homebody-ish. i am a couch potato. ugh-and i hate it. well, i hate that i enjoy being sedentary. if i have to break a sweat, i don't want to do it
that is probably why running is so hard for me, i want to do it so badly, every day, but i hate it-and then i hate myself when i don't do it. kind of a vicious cycle i guess.
i have been in the hate my body stage for quite some time now. probably 8 years. i like to think i would enjoy kick boxing, but funds are tight and we can't afford a gym for the moment-and the rec center class starts at 430 pm-who's out of work by then? freaks don't know why they do that.
actually i think i have this perfect vision of what i want my life and world to be like and it just isn't so that is stressing me horribly-kinda sad eh?