@Saff,
I want to call bullshit on my own post from 2005, religion isn't the answer. I am happy to report that I am an Atheist, I believe sometime in 2006 I actually became an Atheist, after I switched my reading materiel, I believe I was struggling some some philosophical questions, until a professor actually recommended me to pick up literature on critical thinking, I would say it was probably the best advice I had ever received.
It is amazing, reading some of my posts from the past, and the direction I ended up taking in life. Well the youthful exuberance did take me a long way in life. Having a very well of career and family life. Amazing.