Clairvoyance, astrology and synastry

Okay so I have had this question on my mind my whole life. I have been sort of clairvoyant my whole life. I was not clairvoyant like most clairvoyants. I would "see" astrology, or astrological aspects as a form of energies in my mind visually. I have had a very difficult time understanding how to deal with this and have wondered if I interpret it properly. One specific area in my life is in relationships because I have always felt friction between me and potential partners. Then, I realized I had a mars opposition pluto aspect between me and most people in my generation (my age till 7 years older). If anyone can help me understand this I would be very glad to hear any help or advice. Thank you.