I need help or advice... something...

My husband and I have been going through it. Basically are WHOLE relationship... its hard to get good advice without giving you a back story so bear with me... i was with my highschool sweetheart for 8 years from 13 until i was 22... he sold weed ... and alot of it... it was cool when i was younger until i turned qbout 20 qnd wanted more out of my life... i ended up calling it quits qnd moved home in january of 18... i wilded oit after him ... i started working as a cna in a prison... this next part is tricky so please dont judge ... i ended up falling in love with an inmate ... he was perfect or so i thought ... he got out in july of 19... weve been together ever since... but it didnt come as perfext as i thought ... he was addicted to spice would run off od once ... his mom passed away 2 months after him getting out... the last 2 years have been hell.. hes emotionally abusive.. has the finest manipulation skills ive ever seen in a human... we have a 6th month old and are married ... recentlt he wanted to get back in the game talking about weed ... at first it sounded cool... reminded me of when i was younger ... then reality set in .. i can not risk my childs safty or helth period. He comes first no matter what ... i seen some messages talking qbout a girl named kimmy and vicky... if you dont know this is what people call hard core drugs ... its constant disrespect constant hiding things from me and doing stuff behind me back ... idk what to do or how to get out of this situation... mind you i stay at home with the baby ... and have his whole life... i have no income ... i have no babysitter ... i would have to work 3 plus jobs in order to pay the bills... qnd thats just bills thats not stuff i need for my kid ... im at a loss. I feel stuck ... and everytime i try to talk about stuff hes soing its always ... why are you acting like that or you like to argue ... and so on and so forth ... ive given him 1000 plus chnaces and nothing is changing ... please anyone ... i just need help or a push or to know im not alone ...