God, you're slow.
I'm trying to teach you something about who and what you place your trust in, and you stubbornly parrot the same crap over and over again.
You think like an "adult" who equates being an adult with being cynical, jaded, and ultimately compromising. You see being able to imagine things as better as some sort of weakness. You see being aware of things like government control as being crazy.
Mt sister told me to grow up too. Then I noticed how unhappy she looks, having settled into a sort of life. She always picked at my habits, hoping I'd change them, but she wasn't any less a mess. I learned how concerned for her children's safety she was, and how despite her husband working, there was a very real sense of control freak issues. While my brother has spoiled children who are largely left to run around by themselves, her kids are horribly sheltered. They're sweet, but there's a sense of something sad about them. Usually my sister is bossy, but there's a sense of her being in the background of her own life. The point being that I originally thought she had her life all straightened out, and I was jealous of her. But then I realized none of us have our **** together. My dad is worried about reputation and cannot stand the idea of shame. My mom can't say no, and wanders from city to country trying to please first her daughter and now her sister. My brother spends much of his time busy, probably because he can't handle his children.
I don't think like you. And I shall never think like you. That doesn't make me in the need of "growing up" which you see as abandoning a sense of idealism, and falling in line with all the other adults you know. It makes me who I am.
You are broken. There is something missing, but you keep saying you grew up. Did you though? Or did you just kid yourself about what you were growing towards. Because a see a guy who is fixated on how he should be happy because he has everything, money, home, and wife. Fine. So why are you focused on me? You needn't bother. I know the answer. Because something about me unnerves you. I don't really care about wealth, I don't care that much about your fancy stuff, I care marginally about what will happen to me when they die, but I see the hamster wheel you've been running all your life, and don't see the point of living alone just to stay alive. At 39, I've done most of the things I wanted in life. I've written books, made art, and tried to connect with people. I suppose I could learn to be more sociable, but many of the people I've attempted to connect with have been users. I want to be loved, and I want to have a community, but increasingly I understand that people don't need me. When my parents die, I will likely follow not long after. This is sad, but true. Even with inheritance, I just can't be bothered to care. The world around rushes towards personal happiness, but doesn't seem to get how bleak they make those apart from them. Yes, I do hope I disturb you. I hope you realize how your nihilistic drives have colored this world, have made it that much harder to live in.
"On his worst day, Biden..." your signature talks about how you think the very worst day, thus man who is in a constant memory fog is somehow better than a guy who people wanted to impeach seemingly only because CNN said he was bad. You who is such a grown-up will be unable to give me a single reason who he should have been impeached . But I can give you plenty of reasons for Biden. He follows the UN world domination playbook, destabilizing the US economy by making us burn up all our reserve oil. He is totally incompetent, having no idea most days where he is or who he is talking to (this alone is mental unfitness, which should have stripped him from office, but as long as he serves the whims of extremist leftists, he gets a free pass on being senile). He has committed actual treason against the US, whereas Trump talked to President of Russia and ppl lost their ****. What treason? Well, let's mention the screwed up churches, schools, businesses that have basically been economically sabotaged by this prick. Let's talk about up and leaving hundreds or thousands of troops in a foreign country. Let's talk about trying to shove a dangerous vaccine down our throats. "We need to sign the bill to know what's in it." - Nancy Pelosi.
Now Biden tells us we need to take the vaccine to know whether it's safe or not. When they don't take, he encourages business owners to fire them. That's recklessly endangering people, far worse than the supposed risk of disease. They die of poverty. And you don't seem to get it, you don't seem to care. Nor do you care about the businesses folding, the inflation creeping up (which will later steal your life's earnings), the gas prices, and the scarcity of goods and service. Nor do you care that this disease which is now on "Omnicron" because "Nu" sounded like new, and the one after that sounds like the leader of China, has never been isolated in a lab
that follows its own crazy rules for preventing spread (no singing in church? No drinking wine, but you can buy booze from the ABC store, no problem?) and that we are supposed to blindly trust the "science" of when cases are listed even from motor accidents and suicides, has had far more of a legal rights and economic issues than health ones. Are you aware that some people in China were taken away for questioning COVID? It wasn't just China either. Most of Europe abridged free speech entirely to punish thought criminals during the height of restrictions.
"First the came for the Chinese dissidents, but because I wasn't a Chinese dissident, I didn't speak up. They they came for the Christians but because I wasn't a Christian, I didn't speak up. Then they came for the conservatives, but I didn't speak up. Then..." Sooner or later, nobody will speak up, when you lose the last of your rights.
You need to grow up. It's time to ditch your selfish attitude and fixation with your age somehow conferring wisdom. It never did before. Why should it now? I have no reason to live past my parents, yet you want to pity me. Unlike you, I understand that my family and my faith are important. And my faith leads me to believe that there is someything after death. zeven if there wasn't, I would still have lived a good full life with them. The world really isn't much good without them. It isn't clear that you have faith in ANYTHING so I wonder why I should pity you instead. But I won't.