I need help, i'm 18 i'm pregnent and completley afraid

I never ever imagened myself as a "mother". The idea was alien to me, it was something friends of older friends did. NOT ME. I always remembered being at school and kids would say "i'd call my son Pubert, and my daughter Tinkerbell" and would always reply with the simple fact that i never want a child, not ever.

But lets face it i should have thought about this before. I always take precautions, but one time is all it takes, at my age i should be more carefull i know all this. I went through the million lessons at school about STD's and safe sex.

I feel lost and very much helpless, my parents are very religious and have no idea that now i'm not at home i have lost faith, altough i don't think i ever tuly believed, but more to the point would disown me if they knew i was unmarried with child.

I explored the option of termination through desperation and fear of another life inside me but couldn't bring myself to. No matter what the nurses can advise it still feels like murder. My brother mentioned a2k a while ago when he was going thru some troubles with his girlfriend. I would really appreciate anything, any advice anyone might have, or if anyone out there has been in this same situation.