I read your diatribe. I'm close to sorry I looked at, so brimming over with hate.
To me, he may or may not be the vile human - I'm not kidding, I take it as well possible either way.
You probably already know that your using your hating and wanting to sneakally harm badly is basically a stupid idea.
You may get help if you find a counselor, and one of those may understand where you come from.
I understand not wanting to be counseled, as I was so many years ago. I was right (long story). Very religious high up person from the local diocese was assigned to me. I almost remember the woman's lovely name. Started with Mary.
She highly doubted I was raped, I could tell. I suppose Catholic counselers hear that a lot.