Wed 16 Nov, 2016 01:39 am
I fucked up so bad! A little over a week ago i cheated on the most wonderful person in the world, my wife. She is so beautiful, she means the world to me and we love each other unconditionally. So i dont know why i did what i did. Im gone for work and i went to a massage parlor and received and gave unprotected oral to the lady that was giving the massage. I hate my self so much for this! I cant sleep i hardly eat. I just wish i could take this back and what scares me most is that im afraid i got an std from this. Im going to get tested before i reunite with my wife again because idk what i would do if i gave her something. I want to tell her what i did so badly but it would destroy her. Idk what came over me that night she's absolutely amazing im crying as i write this. Im debating on not telling her if my test comes back negative but how could i live with this guilt? If it is positive ive been thinking about not telling her and ending my life because i couldnt live without her or knowing that i hurt her this much. Id rather die knowing that she loves me than live a life without her. I know thats selfish but i cant. Maybe just disapeer somewhere but than id have to live with the guilt still idk what to do.... please help
Don't tell your wife. Period. Seek counseling if you must but don't tell your wife.
But if my test comes back positive that i have an std theres no way i couldnt tell my wife unless i choose other options.
Wait until your test comes back, then consider what to do. You said it was oral sex?
"If a male is giving oral sex to a woman, I consider that to be a low-risk exposure," Warren says. But if a woman's regular partner has oral herpes, "that's a whole different discussion," she says.
There's a real good chance an std isn't going to happen. Calm down and see what the situation really is before making such a momentous decision. Meanwhile, don't tell your wife.