dlowan wrote:I probably know less about what is going on, though, in the last two years of my life, than since I was a tiny child. I think this is because I don't want to hear it any more. Stupid, I know, but there it is.
I know exactly what you mean, though, Boss. When young, and first reading history, i used to dream of martial glory. By the time i was old enough to enlist, however, i no longer had those illusions. When i did enlist, although i was offered OCS (oops, sorry--Officer Candidate School), i turned them down. I could have opted for it later, and i wanted to see what kind of army i was in. This was 1970--73, and it was a pretty sorry army. I gave up the idea of a military career.
When i first got out of the army, i could not watch a war movie. Now, i just find them unrealistic and boring. (BTW, the B/W John Ford classic,
The Red Badge of Courage, is one of the best--i saw it a few years ago, and like it immensely, again. The lead role, The Youth, is played by Audie Murphy--a genuine "hero" as the most decorated soldier of WWII--and the famous war-time cartoonist, Bill Mauldin played the role of The Loud Soldier. Mauldin and Murphy came to be great friends, and Mauldin said that Murphy used to call him early in the morning, saying that he only slept when sufficiently medicated, but that he had slept soundly, for a short while, after making that movie.) The reality of people getting stabbed, shot, blown to pieces--all of this comes too readily to mind when watching the news, and i turn away, genuinely sickened, when i see that sort of thing. My imagination, and the images supplied by experience, are sufficient that i sometimes am obliged to put down a newspaper or a book i am reading, because the images have become too vivid.