@Krumple,
I find it humorous you make well known your jealousy of God.
Everything happens for a reason don't you believe? I do. Why have I suffered the mental suffering I've suffered and continue? Why do others suffer as they suffer? I'm sure some wonder, where is God and why isn't he helping them out of the suffering. I do believe for who each of us are we live through what we live through for a reason otherwise we wouldn't be who we are today, we won't be who we will become in the future.
I honestly believe everything happens for a reason. God is everywhere. He sees everything. Knows everything. I find God truly amazing because nothing can be greater than God with God's powers, abilities, knowledge and so forth.
To define
God [god]
—noun
the one Supreme Being, the creator and ruler of the universe.
the Supreme Being considered with reference to a particular attribute: the God of Islam.
(lowercase) one of several deities, especially a male deity, presiding over some portion of worldly affairs.
(often lowercase) a supreme being according to some particular conception: the god of mercy.
Christian Science. the Supreme Being, understood as Life, Truth, Love, Mind, Soul, Spirit, Principle.
(lowercase) an image of a deity; an idol.
(lowercase) any deified person or object.
(often lowercase) Gods, Theater.
the upper balcony in a theater.
the spectators in this part of the balcony.