I am very scared and tired of life. That probably sounds weird.
Not at all, to some extent we all feel that way from time to time. Though professional help could benefit, it's terribly expensive and so in the meantime it's probably ok to confide in trusted friends--preferably those you admire
However be careful about soliciting help at a forum such as this where many participants seem terribly angry at all times about nearly everything and who may attack anyone at all for no apparent reason, degtermined, attaching themselves to your postings like leeches, intent on ravage
Also it's poignant after a few sips of the evening brew to suddenly realize how critical a few milligrams of some chemical, either from an external source or generated within the body, thus circulating through one's brain. Just this realization alone could yield a restorative effect, not counting the possibility of its eventual disappearance
…...the substance, that is, not your brain
….ether from a natural subsidal of its concentration or simply a life's maturing through experience. In other words, hang in there 2, things might get better
I just don't know how to live life without my sister.
Edited to note that many of us unwilling to scroll past threads are unaware of the situation motivating the disclosure