@JPB,
I'll gladly share my story, alcoholism runs rampant in my family, both sides, mom and dad , i didnt start drinking until i went in the Navy right out of bootcamp,(21yrs old) and i got into trouble right away, arrested by the Marine Corps MP's ( military police) my story is long and drawn out ,but i will say i had lots of problems with my drinking i hurt lots of people, i drank for at least 25 years , i blacked out from the begining and became alcoholic right away, lost many jobs as a result of this disease, i'm in a marriage(7 yrs) right now that even though i'm sober it's shakey , she is patient but if i drink again its OVER, i have one brother who also drinks but is clearly in denial , he has broken his neck in 3 places, he fell over a coffee table, yet to this day he denies he has a problem.
I'm proud i'm able to put some time together away from a drink but i know i'm always one bad decision away from picking up another drink , therefore i go to AA meetings to find out what happens to people who don't go to meetings i can't afford to not stay focused on my recovery otherwise i'm the kind of guy who will become comeplacent and it's only a matter of time before, you guessed it, i relapse, i love my life today and i owe it ALL to AA , yes some think AA is a crutch and honestly i could care less , AA has saved my life and i'm proud i can go to meetings and be confident in my sobriety for that day that i just might not drink, between god and AA i doubt i will relapse but i can't just rely on god and AA i have to do the footwork.
Its painful to think how much pain i iflicted on my wife but as long as i stay sober and focused on my responsibility i will be ok, i cant become cocky or so sure of myself that i won't drink because i will fail , thank god i have the power to turn to others in my life for help should i need it, but for now i can reach within myself and be strong one day at a time and no matter what be true to myself and for that i'm grateful.
I hope this helps !