@peter jeffrey cobb,
Hey! Sorry you had such a difficult day. I wonder if you have a caseworker? There should be a local clinic that has people on staff whose job it is to help people with your particular illness. I wish you'd take advantage of them. You deserve their help. Do you have a caseworker? Do you get your meds from a clinic? You qualify for disability. They usually deny people the first time. I used to be a caseworker, and I filed a few times for people until they began receiving checks.
If something happens to your mom, there is a network of people who could help you find a place to live, get you to the doctor, help with meds and the money is enough to live on. Just barely - but enough. They also talk to you - listen to how you're doing, give you strategies to cope with those voices and other helpful stuff.
I think working a job is too stressful for you right now.