My State of Mind

Hi Joe

Sounds like me, on my first roller-coaster ride after 40 years lay off. (130 km/hr drop ).
As soon as the insignificant-looking little lap triangle bar locked into place, I had a sudden realization that there was likely no way to call it all off without someone pinning the permanent badge of shame to my chest - or my back, as I scuttled away from the scene.
The first portion of the ride, I spent wishing I could get off. The little lap triangle that had so thoroughly impressed me with it's "inescapable" quality, had lost it's it's authority, now was possibly not sufficient to keep me pinned - judging from the tight grip that I had to keep, "just in case".

After a few more rides, I could see becoming blase about it.
Just like marriage

I think that the human mind works like the rest of the body, In a new and unusual environment they will evolve. Some functions evolve sower then others, The brain at first will take any new situation as fight or flee like it or not. Noticing that pattern mow and working to correct it will eventually help you overcome it and understand the way you subconsciously react, I dont think you can help that but you can form habits, something like muscle memory for the brain.