Tell me what you think of my thoughts

Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing. I sit around and do nothing. Sometimes i think I don't have a life, but I feel happy but am I happy? I tell people that I have life figured out do I? Can you have life figured out? We as a people still don't know why we are here, we just are. I have always said that the meaning of life is to have fun. I have a lot of fun so dose that mean I have a life. If my own meaning of life is to have fun and I am having fun that would mean I have a life right?

Sometimes I don't know what is going on. I walk around with the thought that I am a better person then a lot of people that I know. I think to my self that I am better then this person, I know more then this person, and I am having more fun then this person so they don't have a life. I can't tell what another find fun. If I like to smoke weed and drink others might find it more fun to do research or to go to church. It is not my job to tell others what is fun.

If the meaning of life is to have fun then what is "fun" and If there are so many ways of people having fun, how could we all come to the same point and as a people can we all be happy as one? If my girlfriend makes me happy and I have fun being with her, to make things betters I do things for her, i go to her friends house which I don't like and I buy her things. All these things Im not having fun doing them but they make her happy. So its a problem that Im not having fun doing something then I am not happy right. But If the end result is fun that would work out in the end for both of us.

Why do we feel the need to do things for other people? Dose it make us feel better, dose it make us feel good for our self's? I feel that people do things for others for there own benefit. Many people could say that is false but look at it in my view. If a family that is lower class donated $5 to lets say the Red Cross that is living pay check to pay check then why are they doing this. They do this to make them self's feel better. People's minds are there own minds they are using there minds for them self. Yes you can say that there are scientsit that are right now coming with a way to cure Cancer. Yes that is great but for a example the Swine Flue Vaccine as of October 14th 2009 sold $1.5 billion, the seasonal flu vaccine sold $1 billion, and with the global vaccine market hitting $20 billion there is a lot of money to be made. So these scientist who are tying to find the cure for Cancer why are they doing this, to save millions of life's or for making billions of dollars? You be the judge of that. But lets say these scientsit are doing it just to save peoples life's, if this is so why are they doing it? Yes I know it is a crazy question but don't you think that they might be thinking to them self's "I am going to be world famous", "I am unforgettable", and "I will be in the history book". So what is the key word in each of those? Yes it is "I" In the back of all of our mind's we are there, we are that little voice telling us to do things to better our self's. Has that little voice ever told you to do something that is bad for you? The purpose of that little voice to to be on your side, is to some how in the end it comes out making you on top.

If we are all just so concerned with our self's then why do we care so much about what others think about us? If we are all just thinking about our needs, our wants, and our way to find fun, then why did the cosmetics industry make $7 billion in 2009? Or Why in 2008 did the cosmetic Surgery industry make $1.9 billion? How I see it, people feel better when others like them, and as we all know, first impressions count very much so, to be happy i seems we need to impress, befriend, and think of others because to be happy we need others in our life's. We need someone there that will be there for us. But how can we do this is we are just thinking of our self's? But that is the thing as stated previously we only care about our self, but we all look better so we can make friends and be happy and most people don't want to be alone they want to have that group of friends, a girlfriend, wife, and what ever to make them happy. to get they people spend money to look the part, to feel that they are wanted. That is what it breaks down to, the need of feeling wanted.

As children we need love and affection, but do we still need that when we are adults? Many people would tell you that they are a loner, that they don't need some affection in there life's. But a study done by by Phychosomatic showed that massage and touch lowers stress hormones and blood pressure. So it is helpful to us. But lets say if we never had or were given to us for a period of time, I feel that people would go crazy if they did not have any short affection. affection from others allows you to know that you are needed, to know that you are loved.