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Catch, my offering,
(1) Why do I keep thinking I have my "rights", especialy my right to doubt? What's the worth of the individual and his ideosyncracies?[INDENT](1). Nothing, it it remains individualistic. We can't accomplish anything on our own other than that which will satisfy the ego. We need other people. The more the merrier. That is our burden. It's as though you want to scream, "What the hell are you people doing", except no one is listening. They don't trust you. They are thinking your motives a bit selfish. You are not being honest and trusting with them. They are used to that. Your search has gone far beyond their ability to comprehend. Actions speak louder than words. Your rights are no different than the rights of another. Perhaps of a different magnitude, but none the less equal as they compliment each other. Our impatience creates our doubts as we all what to know the truth and we want it on a silver platter. We want it now. It will come but it will be a group effort.
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(2). William, you will say: you're part of a Plan. You will say: open up for God and you will find the Way Home. In fact you come from God and you will return to Him, whether you like it or not. [INDENT](2).Plan? What plan? There is no plan. There is only God (Universe) and the future we build together. We are only apart temporarily in that we have the perfection of being alone. Not very satisfying, but the truth. After all we are divine, just incomplete. In our separation we will learn in that loneliness what is missing so we can begin to truly live relying on others and what they have to offer coupled with our own contributions. That is synergy. That is harmony. That is God in motion. We don't return to him, He finds us. Contrary to popular belief, it is not God's desire of us to serve Him, for we do not know his needs. It is His desire to serve us. Once we clear the channel, he will make His presence known and guide our path. It's quite obvious we are not doing a very good job on our own.
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(3). Why do I think that sticking to myself is more than just stubborness and vanity? Why do I resist declaring myself an athe[INDENT](3). Compulsion. You want the silver platter. You want the answers. Such is the dilemma of considering life so short. If you were an atheist, you would lose that which drives you so. You don't won't to give up. Frustrating, but in some way comforting. I know. As I said, been there, done that. I too don't have the answers, but I am assured they will come in their right time. That's the key. The mind is a beautiful thing, if we can just learn to leave it alone. We are truly an impatient lot. We strive to seek all that life has to offer and in that search we fail to live it.
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(4). Choosing means you can make the wrong choice, but then aren't all choices wrong and isn't that precisely what it means to be human? [INDENT](4). Yes. Well, sorta. It's just when we are faced with a choice we are searching for the "better". What is better? Now we open up a entirely different bucket of worms. That is the first step off the path. Searching for "better". As in everything else, better will happen in it's own time and it will not be a matter of choice. Effort is our warning sign especially mentally when we burn the candle at both ends to find answers we don't need. In most cases if we do find answers we don't know what to do with them or apply them in all the wrong ways. Serendipity is what we want.
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(5). All over the world people, suffer, seek and die, and we take it so much for granted. [INDENT](5). That's our punishment. To witness the horrors of man's greed, is far worse than death itself. Those who excuse it, have blinded the soul and what repercussions that carries, I don't care to know. Yes we do take a lot for granted. Of what use is a golden fountain if no water flows through it.
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(6).I feel much better when I can help my wife.[INDENT](6). What a beautiful statement. Now imagine a world that understands what you just said and follows suit. Not so much as it relates to your situation but to the comfort that giving offers. I am not talking about charity in any stretch of the imagination. That's greeds answer that calms a raging conscience. This is not a give and take universe. It is a "giving" universe. It all about giving. If we give all we can to aid our fellow man, he will in turn give to us. It is a give/give situation. He will provide all you will ever need, cheerfully given "without effort"
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Catch, I am not saying all that I have related is truth, it's what came out of my mind.Sometimes I can get out there. Please drill me if you need me to simplify it. I need that. I hope it rest well with you and offered a little comfort. Regardless where we reside in this world we are all the same. We do what we can with what we have to work with moment to moment. It's so much simpler that way.
William