Hello everyone.
I haven't used this forum in ages :p, but I have a large decision to make about my university career and my life, and I'm trying to get advice from as many people as possible. Any responses are very welcome.
I am a mathematics undergraduate in South Africa. I have done three years of my undergrad, and I am thinking of taking a year off before I complete my final fourth-year of undergrad (this is possible in South Africa). I have already been accepted for my 4th-year studies, and have registered (the fourth year is separate in my country-- long story...), but it is still the first week of the first semester, and I have time to de-register without penalty. I have also been awarded a bursary by an outside party for this 4th year which covers all my fees, textbook costs, etc., and I don't have to re-pay it or do anything else in return.
That last sentence sounds great, doesn't it? Then why would I want to take a year off? Well, here comes a long story. All I want to do is study mathematics, and do as well at it as I can. To be frank, I have learnt very little mathematics from my first three years at university. The mathematics department is bad at my university. How do I know? I have compared myself to students from American universities and European universities, and I find I am far, far behind. I have been to a few lectures this year, and I am completely over-whelmed at the material they expect us to know. I know this sounds crazy: that they would expect us to know things they haven't taught us-- another long story, and this post will be voluminous enough without it, so please forgive me for leaving it out.
So I plan to take this year off, and complete my 4th year next year. I plan to work, and in my free time study mathematics on my own, to try built a good foundation for my final year. I have decided I must work, because I can't sit at home doing nothing but studying; that would be unfair on my parents, who have paid for my education thus far (beside raising me as well). But taking a year off is a big decision. I will have to re-apply to the university, and I will forfeit my bursary. I do not come from a wealthy family, the bursary was very helpful. Having just said that, I know I sound like I am whining. Things look great for this year: a bursary covering all my university expenses! Man-up and complete this last year! Let me try to explain.
Mathematics is the only thing I love. I want to make a success of it. I would like to get a PhD eventually. I'd like to do my Masters and PhD overseas, if possible, since my university's mathematics department is weak. If I can do well in my last year I have a better chance in succeeding in mathematics, whatever university I end up at. I really, really want to do well in this 4th year, and judging by how the year has started, I cannot see that happening. I am completely lost. I can't sleep. During my year off I will study mathematics in preparation of this last year, to try to do well.
This is not a rash decision: I have been thinking about this for three or four months now. I spoke to the convenor of mathematics, but he did not have much to say to me. He gave me the standard responses: If you're hesitant, I urge you to not take the year off, etc. When I asked him why, he shrugged and couldn't say. There is a curriculum advisor, but I do not want to speak to him. I have been to him before for advice, and all he did was surreptitiously insult me. I have only told my sister, and she doesn't have any advice for me. I haven't consulted my parents yet. I don't know who to ask for advice.
But taking a year off before the final year is not un-common. One or two people do it each year. I plan to work for two reasons: to pay rent to my father for staying at his house; and to save towards my university fees, in case I do not get a bursary for 2011. We are not a rich family. I know I seem very selfish, turning down this bursary; I could be making a wretched mistake. The convenor says he sees no reason why I won't be re-admitted if I take a year off. It's far from certain that I will be awarded another bursary if I take the year off. If I don't take the year off, and plough ahead with my last year, it is quite likely I will do poorly, and will not be accepted to post-graduate studies. I will have to work find work with only an undergraduate degree. I think I would be quite miserable if that were to happen.
Anything you have to say is very much appreciated
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