@dlowan,
doing fine my friend.
As I mentioned on another thread I've been rusticating here in Appalachia, which is all well and good but ...
...it's time, for me --like the tin man-- to oil my joints and prepare for some keyboard typing. :-)
What's happening in your life?
looked up at the door as it slammed shut
peeped through the letter box, as your back turned the corner
the last time i saw my father
more than a decade has passed
and we learned to make do
cant count the ways i hate you
used you as an part of my elaborate excuse
your so obtuse
dont seem to care
we have loved, lost, felt elation dispair
you missed it all
you were not there
though i was your baby once with the golden hair
i can still see you sittin in your chair
making us all fall silent under dictatorship
no father daughter relationship
and now the past becomes the future
you dont matter any more
ive got love in my belly
and its only gonna grow
when she's big enough
she'll only wanna know
and i dont want that feeling allover my baby
missing something like crazy
i might as well be my mother
betrayed by her lover never trusting another
worrying my angel will tread in my path
and fall victim to the heatache ive had
coz her daddy dont love me
no he dont care
he dont wanna be here, says he wont be there
wish i could put him in my shoes
so he could feel you move
looking up at the monitor to the most beautiful sight
feeling sick, feeling so tired he cries
working his ass off, that would be a surprise
and on top of it all feeling alone
overwhelmed and let down
I cant see him ever changing his whole life around
@mcee fya,
mceefya, I can't hold it any more (you know I'm a prybaby).
Is this imaginative? or are you actually expecting?
If so, many congratulations and much joy to you.
@spikepipsqueak,
yes i'm 17 weeks now so thankyou x
@mcee fya,
Your "voice" often sounds troubled, mcfya.
FWIW, I can tell you from personal experience that it is possible to be a better parent than you had.
All the best to you and the "bump".
Aint nothing stronger than the will of a woman
To give love and get love and be the best mother
Im on mission, I dont need recognition
When it comes to your sweet talk, Im concrete
And your chromosones dont make you manly
I see, right through brovado into a scared little hollow
Boy wanna be a man stand up dont wallow
You've no pride to swallow
No metaphorical balls, selfish, not smart
I dont want your money, I dont want your heart
Dont even hold my hand through the worst part
Said you'll be a father, first you have to be a man
Stop making promises and changing the plan
Somehow you've been hangin with your friends
Thinking of commiting then not wating your childhood to end
while ive took control
Quit the drink and the drugs and the smoking
I stopped it all
Started working, Started saving, Started staying home
Coz the will of a woman doesn't fade when she's alone
@edgarblythe,
My mind, it reels, at the thoughts of today
The events overwhelm and seize me.
I crawl back in bed and cover my head
Later - the problems will still be.
Good morning, evahbodeeeeee. Just peeking in to see what you all have been up to. Lovin it all.
@edgarblythe,
He doesn't want me.
He doesn't need me.
He doesn't love me.
Where to go from here?
Down into despair.
Then up the other side
To anaesthesia.
Safe plateau
Where reside no wolves
To tear my flesh,
No sudden bolts
To rend my soul,
Just the furry fog
To buffer me from sensing.
Cotton wool,
Healing, cleansing.
What's wrong with our clergy?
We need more thaumaturgy!
The Cemetery
under lapidary lines they lie...
labeled but unlimned
A robin I saw
One vast shadow of winter
In the short brown grass
"...can Spring be far behind?"
It's cold outside again, again,
the wind is blowing and snorting,
but I'm not sad because, because
"Pitchers and Catchers are reporting."
I just want to share my secrets with you
In hopes that you wont run away
What hides in me, is me
I want you to be apart of that
Know me as i know myself
So I can see you as you see yourself
If wishes were horses
and horses were porsches
wouldn't we ride lord
wouldn't we ride
if daydreams were lovers
hid under the covers
wouldn't we love lord
wouldn't we love
if heartaches were fishies
and sorrows mere itchies
we'd drift away lord
and swim away
if wishes were horese
if wish
es
were
horse
s
Not 100% spontaneous, but I did it all in one sitting.
Our friend, the one everyone's told to look up to
Informed the whole group how he worries about you,
And I didn't say anything in reply
Cause I know that he's right, and I know you might die
Like they said.
It's hard to imagine you going insane,
How you've ruined your life, how it's gone down the drain
And I wish that you hadn't just gone on your own
Without stopping to think about lying alone
When you're dead.
I've finally stopped talking, they won't stop believing
They know how to live and it's all about grieving
Was just you and me who would jump for the feeling
We'd laugh as we crashed and we'd send the world reeling
But now I'm without you and I don't know whether
We're birds of a feather--they all die together
With one stone.
@Foley,
Close enough, foley. Good job.
