Spontaneous Poems

sorry if i am fillin up ur forum guys, gotta lot on my mind! respect tothe professer ur work as always moved me drity dozen22 an mngunim all ur stuff as struck a cord wiv me u all got me down to a t at the mo lol xxx

how have you been mcee fya ?

You seem to be going through it at the moment. Hold on tight. Strength to you.

this goes with my last one do you have msn or facebook fya?

Adrift.

Not prone to loneliness,
Love my alone. Still,
Groping blind.
Losing delusion, I find
I preferred it to reality.

Vague, unmoored.
Floating free.
Imploding on the spine I lack
Wanting my illusions back.

my every word was true
carefully chosen, like the king’s wife
though to your heart, a sharp knife
what a man to say to make it through life
when girls like bees come in fives
trying to make you their hive
going rad to your vibes
how do I break it down
how do I tell the truth in the roads of this town
be an adult wipe that frown
all I say, all I do
seem enough to pull you closer
its me and all of me
being myself not a poser
its only caring not love
‘would have told you,
we would have been doves
centre piece is missing, that’s love
we cant make it, no way no how
I have a girl, she cant take a bow

Every night she lies awake,
Thinking of her life,
Not going the way she wanted,
And filled with so much strife.

(chorus)
In relationships, guys had played her.
In friendships, girls betrayed her.
Her troubles only served to break her,
But not to make her.

School refused to keep her,
Because of her uncontrollable rage.
At work she cursed out her co-worker,
And was canned the next day.

(chorus)

Her life was full of failures,
Without much success in between,
Because of all who had wronged her,
All who had been so mean.

She sued her school, her work as well,
And the courts took her case on.
After a long difficult battle,
A huge settlement she's won!

I often have a little trouble interpreting your pieces, mngunim.

I can only conclude, to make complete sense of the discrepancies, that you address multiple people within each piece.

If you're ever reading these under circumstances that matter, it might pay to make it clear to her which one she is.

hey professer yea i'm on facebook not msn tho wots ur name on it i'll add u x

mike dugas from calgary the one with the headphones

Thanks spike, I guess that explains the reason behind the complexity of my life, or why most people misunderstand me. I always wondered . Thanks a again

Every morning she wakes up,
And end up wondering why,
She had lost everything.
They just slipped out of her life.

Why can't she keep her friends?
Why did they betray her?
Why can't she keep relationships?
How could they just play her?

As a college kick-out,
Maybe life was still worth living,
But after she was fired,
The world became unforgiving.

Soon she lost her freedom,
As she was headed towards jail,
For assault and battery charges,
With only small possibility of bail.

She was released a year later,
Thrown out into the cold,
Completely on her own now,
And only 19 years old.

So keep cursing out your friends,
And see how long they would stay.
You said they had left you,
But you kept pushing them away.

Keep raging at your boyfriend,
And see how long he would last.
You never learn from your mistakes,
You're too angry at your past.

No chance to go to school now,
No chance to go to work,
Because you lose your temper.
You're the only one you hurt.

Why were they so angry?
Was it really that out of hand?
I didn't know it was that serious.
I was too young to understand.

All I did was curse her out,
For pissing me off big time.
I didn't know it was harassment,
That it was way out of line.

All I did was punch the wall,
When she didn't admit she's wrong.
I didn't know it was workplace violence,
Or that my job would be gone.

I didn't know it was that serious,
That it would get me canned,
That is was gross misconduct.
I was too young to understand.

heaven
beyond the holes in the ozone
far above the tallest trees
the place you search your soul for
when gravity pulls you to your knees
divinty, infinity, everlasting hope
where fingerprints and snowflakes are not unique
we are one
bound by creation
part of natures beauty
burning purposely like the sun
and the answers that we seek are no longer questioned
almost prehistoric in notion
before the radio got killed by video
and man marvelled at the ocean
maybe heaven is every second slipping through our fingers
every night and everyday
and maybe atoms just mattered to come together in this way
maybe breathtaking mountains and canyons just fell into place
but a sunrise can surround you and illuminate your faith
clear night sky with shooting stars reflected by a lake
peaceful silence that speaks every language silence breaks
heaven does not sleep for peace she wakes

it’s all just a talk
no matter how you try, you were not meant for the walk
another year another resolution
only this one I vow to keep
commitment written on my face
as wholly as they return from praise
the promise for my confession makes me weep
when I think about Him and all He’s done
He’s still only worth coins from my pocket
though He knows my sins and keeps my docket
the hours he gave me I only give Him a second
to close my eyes, sometimes I forget
the life I have is too busy can’t make that stop
seems normal until He presses the pause button
live life on the bed worrying about kicking the bucket
how bad will it be, oh the kids, will they survive with that budget
promises and vows until I’m well and say f#@k it
it wasn’t my time, of course I was gonna make it
life is back, still need to live it
I go on, it’s not me just circumstances
blame it on Satan and the demons
maybe he introduced a sin, I’m just taken by my hormones

Major illness, mngunim? Hope all's OK.

just still awake at 6am n got a million things crashing around my mind! better out than in eh!

throw my life away on a moment
though its fleeting
atleast feelings lay dormant
and for a second no ones speaking
no no-one makes a sound
better than sleeping
if they do, i cant hear em
i'm far above the ground
still i cant escape my own sound
so high i'm in the stratosphere
soaking up the atmosphere
cooking up words that rhyme
and i know it wont be long
untill these words of mine
conquer time, each line is a tick or tock
pull me away for a metaphor or simile
brought back by the sin in me
yes i am sinner
rarely a winner
how i love to speak of me
and the demons that haunt my dreams
we are but dreamers when were alone
running through our dreams clutching microphones
maybe holding golden globes
silly as it seems
never satisfied
never complete
day dreaming of a time thats passed
when they had you in their grasp
you gasped for courage
yet never said what your mind pushed you to say
lonliness will take you back
and back and back to that day
the words flow freely as you stand up for yourself
and wonder why these words would not come
when you needed their help
oh these words and dreams they merge
untill i dont know what i want for their is no urge
or even what i need
i cant remember wanting i dont remember greed
nothing in me
but the mania the cogs and wheels that turn and will not cease
will not ease, theres no release
these words are all i have
and yet i cannot speak my mind
as morning dawns i type and find
i'm blind
i think i used to see
i think i lived and heard and breathed
and never thought of time
now she ties me to her chime
telling me, not long left not long left at all
i try to see what i can show or tell her
but times taken it all

1980 something...

back when the artist was just known as prince
when my devience and innocence where interlinked
when i said what i thinked!
and what i saw
when the thunderbirds and terminators had us in awe
just a child in the 80's
wearing hand me downs
hid as much from them then
as i do now
like wheres wally
if it rained i'd get wet, i didnt need a brolly
played pac man an sonic
my brother sang while pluckin at strings "im a scatman!"
grandad, drank whiskey an tonic!
nanna played bingo mostly everyday
my mum made the world a safe place to play
my sister danced around her room
where i WASN'T ALLOWED!!!
and when mum went away she'd invite a crowd
i guess she was embarrassed when i peered through her door
coz shed shout "**** off! what you being nosey for"
i wanted to be her just for a day
to see what it was like to be popular
have people care what i say
wear make up and tight dresses
drink beer and kiss boys
smoke cigarettes and whacky backy
didn't wanna play with toys
i just played out with the "kids"
no one thought i thought much
i was ticking away
i had too many questions
too many answers
and not enough days
i'd sit alone on the "big hill"
where you can see for acres and miles
ive heard on a clear day you can see blackpool
but i think thats a lie
anyway i'd be thinking of too much for a child
thinking and looking
far out at the sky
wonder if i jumped off this hill and flapped hard would i fly?
i never tried
i still sit there now when i lose myself
look out at the sun, untill i see stars
thinking of dancing and singing and playing guitars
wondering if i wish hard enough could i turn back time
coz i wouldn't care about drinkin or smokin or boys
i'd be happy to know i can just play with toys

Nah spike, just a thought, just a thought

Living in the now

this ain’t your average kids
you are used to the ones who beg,
cry and scream bursting your eardrums
roll down at the mall, throw tantrums
abuse your feelings until you are numb
these ones grew in the pub
with beer for thirst, yes, they couldn’t afford rum
the streets were their home, never said ‘mum’
in those winter nights, they dreamt of warmth
sadness overshadowed their idea of home
left the dreams, aspirations, hopes for fame
survival became the name of the game
the feelings you always try to tame
going to psychiatrists and all that shame
to them its non-existence
get food now, if it needs be use violence
they only live in the present

face it please this is life and all of it
nothing more, no hidden costs
the whole picture in few lines
we are sentenced but don’t know our crimes
read my untold truth, not written in your TIMEs
we do care more than you may be aware
your comments and all the nonsense
to some doesn’t make sense
even worse, it proves you ignorance
like you we have an existence
we get excited and do our dance
don’t call us weird, we do take offence
all you heard is in the past tense
it dates back like records on wikipedia
shadowed and hidden by the media
to sell their papers and raise more fees
this is Africa G, we don’t swing in trees
we don’t run naked, we eat burgers and cheese
what makes you think our conditions are bad
don’t say that s#@t, it drives me mad
you are too old, don’t be taken for a ride
open your mind and see the other side