@hodyal,
Hello I am new on this site, I fully understand you!!! that exactly happened to me.. so so many years ago.. now I can see he did not love me, something I didnĀ“t want to realize when I was so in love with him. but Hodyal, nobody NOBODY deserves one single or your tears, as long as he is not willing to loose one tear for you!!! your love is just too much for him... and you deserve someone to be crazy about you and your way of loving, if he just can not or does not want to valuate you, then do not loose your time. Do not look for somebody else.... just live for your, do anything you have always wanted to do for you!!! love yourself, (please excuse my english as this is not my native language) do not suffer for somebody who is not willing to do the same for you!!! you worth too much... just be happy and make yourself happy