@dyslexia,
You have to when living in NM.
Suicide is at times morally permissible - who would object after the fact, resp. the person committing suicide couldn't care less.
It is however a cowardly move to escape one's problems and I am
not sure, I could forgive such an act if it happened as a way out of a difficult
situation. Like the guy who jumped off the Coronado bridge recently because
he piled up a horrendous debt to support his gambling habit, including
embezzling money from his employer. He left a wife and two children to deal
with the mess. Was his suicide morally permissible? Not in my book - it was
an easy way out for him to escape his problems, that's all!