@whiteviolet,
Tricia - I'm not sure quite why you have posted this - but I am going to respond after your emails last nite.
The people here are good people. In my opinion - the best.
I have spoken to you privately and do not wish to run thru the same things again. Folks have much to do deal with - your pain is very real and is heartbreaking for you - but the folks here always have time to support when they can - however, no-one can be expected to support anything when they are unaware if you are upset or struggling. Many people have been asking after you.
I don't know if you have shared with the crew your thoughts from our emails last nite and that is why you have posted. All I know is people here are kind and generous but also have very busy lives. I'm sure apologies are not in order and you didn't need to post this publically.
As always, we are here - if you wish to jump aboard - please do - you don't have to say anything - but do not ever think that people don't care, because they do.
There is much going on in everyone's life and we all do the best we can to get thru. One of the good things about being online - is that people are not emotionally involved face to face - you can get a better perspective on how to deal with things if you can step back from the situation and offer advice - or just a hug or a shoulder.
No-one is ignoring you or trying to hurt you here - these folk aren't fairweather - they are here any weather, rough or smooth and any which way there is. Everyday people - a bunch of mates.
These people just aren't like that, they don't intentionally hurt, including me. We all lash out when we are angry - usually with those we care for - and you can jump on and scream and shout if you want to - we all do.
Please, if you feel as tho you wish to have the support of folk - then you need to let them know. As I said last nite - people don't need details - you don't need to say anything you dont wish to. Also, everyone has the choice whether or not they wish to be here. The folk here all have their own stories - in some way, shape or form. I don't know everyone's story - peoples private business is just that, private. All we're doing is trying to make life a little easier - we aren't counsellors, we aren't anything - but regular people who have got together and yabber - people here, they are everything to me. We turned into an amazing crew - I have huge respect for everyone here - it's a gift..... a precious gift, each person is valued. I feel honoured to know the people here. That includes you.
Jump onboard if you wish to Tricia - but please also understand that we're human too and we do hurt. I hurt when people distrust me or make me feel guilty for not being a good person. It's not how I feel or wish to be. Me, I do say what I feel with those I trust - hence this post. Guilt - I got enough already, won't take on any more.
I hope you return to A2K when you feel able. I know the crew would be delighted to see you. Meanwhile - if you wish to email me - that's cool with me. I hope you feel better soon girl and don't worry about what's happened in the past - it's the past - it's how you live today that's important.
Starting over. x