@whiteviolet,
Hey crew -
I had a good nite. Lots of dancing round the fire and singing Bat Out Of Hell and Bon Jovi at the top of my voice. My BigBoy was great - he wouldn't come home with me - black and white autism says our family broke up - therefore - he cannot come back into my home - he explained this in detail. I understand him. We had a great talk. He hugged everyone - he hugged my Father and said "I love you man" - my father cried - we laughed - he told us all how much he loved us and apologised for the next thousand times he tells us that he hates us all before he tells us he loves us again. I told him he didn't need to apologise. We know.
It was a good nite for everyone. A turning point maybe.
So very tired now - but good tired. I danced and sang til I could dance and sing no more. Badly on both counts - loving every minute of it - with a cuppa Earl Grey in my hand. We had two big fires - the children made pictures in the nite with the ends of their smouldering sticks and we had marshmallows.
Home alone now.... smiling.... tired. Feeling.... strange. The people who I hadn't seen in a year - they said I was "glowing" - they said I looked "new" - that's kinda good. People can see "me" now.
Love y'all - sleep big everyone. xox