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Tue 31 Jan, 2006 02:43 pm
MIGRANE
This poem is dedicated to all those who also suffer from them
I feel the wall approaching
As I open up my eyes
Churning pain a coming
Just daring me to rise
How bad I think this morning
As I reach out for my pills
Desperately dry swallowing
Praying that pain stills
A two a four perhaps a five
Oh God please not an eight
I feel perhaps I'll not survive
The pain of ten's foul weight
Heart pounds anguish into my ears
At least a three I think
Eyes tear from sunlight's vile spears
I'm at five's evil brink
My stomach churns with bile
But I hurt too much to puke
Please God why the trial
Of seven's malign rebuke
The tingle in my fingers
As nerves begin to grate
It tells me I'll not linger
As pain slides right past eight
The smell of suffering fills my room
Torment crashes most malign
Roil of pain it seals my doom
As the evil reaches nine
Promise God most anything
To end this wracking curse
I'm at ten and next wave sings
It's only getting worse
Trembling hand it finds the drawer
And feels around inside
To end this pain I do implore
A gun's answer will provide
But my gun is hidden safe away
And drugs bludgeon me to sleep
So I shall live another day
Til pain's wave again does creep
by Fedral
Author's Comments:
"I am a long sufferer of migrane headaches. I wrote this to try and give my friends and family an idea of what I experience during them. Since I was young, I've always rated them from 1 (Headache on steroids) to 10 (Promise God ANYTHING to make it stop). I deal with the 5 and 6's ... I absolutely dread the 10's."
Fedral,
I have had migraines since I was 16. I know how you feel. It's not something you can really describe but your poem does a pretty good job.
Yeah, those tens are tough. I have actually begged my husband to shoot me when I have had them. I am so sorry you go through this. Do you get any auras with yours? Sights or sounds? I will see yellow spots sometimes.
Momma Angel,
Real sorry to hear that you suffer from these as well.
No, no 'auras' although light causes me physical pain.
The worst for me is smells and sounds. The slightest noise sounds like a cannon going off next to my ear and any strong smells will cause me to 'toss my cookies'.
Fedrals,
Do you have much warning with yours? Do you ever get the oh, what do they call them, lightning? thunderstruck? something like that? They are instantaneous migraines? Fine one second, flat out the next? I have only had one like that. The rest I pretty much know when I am getting one. I only get the yellow spots when it's a ten. I see the spots and that's it, all stop! I hit the bed and don't move.
How long have you had yours? I bet you get them so bad you move your eyes and you toss your cookies too? Seems that those that are sensitive to sound are also very sensitive to any kind of movement.
I need pitch black and quiet and cool. If that doesn't work, it's the ER and a shot to knock me out.
I hope you have someone with you that is sympathetic when you do have one. That's very important.
Almost all mine start in the morning. Either just as I am waking up, or if they are going to be REALLY bad, they wake me up from the pain at around 2-6 am.
When they come on like that, the only thing for me to do is open up a jar of Vicks Vap O Rub (This is a very soothing smell for some reason and it overpowers most eveything that might make me sick up.) and to lay a wet towel over my face.
If they are bad enough, I take my codeine and bludgeon myself into unconciousness.
I have ulcers as well, so my stomace is sensitive as heck in the first place and these don't help at all.
My roomate is an understanding soul and will actually go out to eat on the days I get these because he knows the smells of anything cooking in the house will send me 'heads down in the bowl'.
The worst part is the people who say things like:
"Migranes, oh yes, I've had bad headaches myself, I know what you are feeling..."
Whenever a woman says this, I just say:
"Childbirth, oh yeah, I stubbed my toe once, I know EXACTLY how you felt..."
I wouldn't wish one on anyone!
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